I had a melt down today and lost it with my kids. I yelled and lectured and yelled and lectured. It is not something that happens very often but I had let things build up to the point that I just exploded. I admitted something to myself. I am a working mother. There. I said it. And I can’t do it all, all of the time.
I am blessed to be able to work from home but it is still a job. I didn’t start my blog with the intention of it becoming a business. But when it started to morph into that, I was okay with it because lets face it, with 3 layoffs in 2 years our household could use the income (albeit small). But I am still coming to terms with the fact that because of the added time put towards the blog, I have to cut out some of the other stuff. Like cleaning….
My house use to be so clean. Seriously clean. I was very proud of how sanitized everything was. It wasn’t just picked up, it was SPOTLESS. I probably had a little too much pride about that. But oh how the mighty have fallen.
I also looked at my sons end of year report card and realized we didn’t turn in the last two months worth of reading calenders. And I can’t remember if we turned in his homework packet on Monday….. He did read and he did do his homework. I just stink at reminding him to turn it in I guess.
We had a special family meeting tonight where we talked about us needing to work together. I apologized for getting so upset earlier. And we decided together that the boys needed more chores. My husband (who does the dishes more than I do anyway) said he would do the dishes…. all the time. Forever. I about died. I hate dishes more than anything in the world! He already does quite a bit of cleaning around the house but he also said he would (wait for it….) fold all the laundry.
I must have been really scarey when I freaked out earlier :P
I am new to this working thing. I am used to being able to focus 100% of my time on my kids and house. So I am still trying to figure it out. I just barely admitting that I HAVE A JOB. Admitting it is the first step, right? So I want all of you who work from home, out of the home, part time, or full time to tell me HOW YOU DO IT? How did you let go of the fact that you could no longer do all you want to do? I would love to still be able to actually do it all. The cleaning, the bread baking, the volunteering at the school, yard work, etc….AND the blogging.
But I can’t.
Any advice? (and remember, be nice)