I woke up one day recently and realized that I was not in my twenties anymore. I miss my twenties. I could eat whatever I wanted and do nothing and basically maintain my weight and energy level. And then I turned 30. And then I had my fourth child. And then I never really lost the weight from the pregnancy. And then I gained a little more. And now I am 33 and have 40 extra pounds just hangin’ there…… Literally.
I think I am more aware of my weight because I take pictures for this blog and I do local TV so when I see those pictures/video clips I am like WOW! Are those MY arms? Seeing myself everyday in the mirror I am use to it. As I slowly gain the weight it is almost undetectable. But I think at one point we all have that moment when we see a picture and do a double take. “Is that me?”
I am tired all the time. I know that my schedule of being a mom and then trying to be a DIY Diva doing projects at night and blogging on top of that doesn’t help me any, but I know that my age, diet, and the fact that my exercise routine is sporadic at best, also contribute.
I swore I would never join a gym. Like SWORE up and down, over and over that it would never happen.
But there was something about turning 33. Something about it made me re-evaluate my life. I all of a sudden realized I am an adult. That I am not this indestructible young person that will never grow old or slow down. I know, you are thinking “Dude, Stacy, you were suppose to have that epiphany YEARS ago.” Okay. So I am a little slow.
I started to FEEL old. And time is going by way too fast. I have a terrible health history on my side of the family. You know those boxes on Doctor forms you fill out? I usually have to check them all. I do not want to have all those health issues.
I have an exercise bike and a treadmill plus some free weights at home. I have tried over the years to just do it on my own. You see, I have a HUGE deep seeded fear of working out in front of other people.
I first talked about this when I talked about finally dancing in front of others at the blog conference SNAP last year.. But dancing around and having fun with other women who are friends (even though it was still hard for me) was one thing, exercising in front of MEN I didn’t know is a whole other thing.
So I decided to put my big girl panties on and face reality. I can’t do it on my own. I have to take this seriously. I have to DO something.
So I joined a freakin’ GYM!
Last night was my first time going. My husband is doing this with me. I have never stepped foot inside a gym so I had no idea what to expect. I wore stretchy black pants and an old tee shirt. I quickly found that I was sadly under dressed. I think these ladies have the gym confused with the mall……(ironically they are both places I avoid). The gym does a free health assessment so we went after my husband got off work. Because it was in the evening the placed was packed with men. I was so nervous I was sweating before we even touched a piece of equipment. And to make matters worse we had a personal trainer showing us around and having us workout for him to check our form. (P.S. I have no form) We stuck out like a couple of tourists. We might as well have been wearing Hawaiian shirts and giant cameras around out necks.
And then for the cherry on top…… I saw a guy I use to date in High school. Yep. AFTER the workout when I was hot (not to be confused with hawt).
But guess what? I survived.
And I will be going back 3 days a week.
Why am I sharing this when it has zero to do with home decor???
Because 2013 is the year of the uncomfortable. I have decided I am going to do things that scare me. I am going to do things I said I would never do. I am going to go outside of my comfort zone. Because I want to grow. And I want you to do it with me. Sometime this spring I am going to do something BIG on this blog. Something I have planned on and wanted to do for over 2 years. I had this idea when my blog was in the planning stages but I have never actually done anything to make it a reality. It will be a lot of work on my part and it may be an epic fail.
But I am going to try.
P.S. I have a ton of posts about the details of my family room coming up in the next few days! And if you missed it, I have the Best DIY Project of the Year Contest going on right now!!! You could win a $250 gift card to Home Depot!