You may have noticed things have been quiet around here. I have not posted since last Tuesday. Part of that is because I have been trying to finish all the last details for my big family room reveal and part of it is some personal things happening on my side of the family that have been weighing heavily on my heart.
And then Friday happened.
Many bloggers are choosing to have a day of silence and many are planning to blog as usual. Both are totally fine but I don’t think I can do either.
I learned when I lost my dad to cancer at 15 that everyone grieves differently. I also learned that some people judge you on how you mourn. But I promise you there is no “right way” to grieve. For me at this time in my life it helps to talk about it. So pardon me as I set aside all talk of home decor, and power tools for today.
The shooting at Sandy Hook school shook this nation. It shook me. I couldn’t keep back the sobs all day and the next day I would tear up at the mention of it. I have a five year old kindergartener. I found out about the shooting minutes before I sent him to afternoon kindergarten. I could picture his class. Those sweet little faces, some of which still have their baby fat. So innocent and excited about Santa’s upcoming visit.
And even the kids who survived will be forever changed. Christmas probably doesn’t hold the same excitement as before. I know at least one of you had a child there that day.
Erin, I have prayed your little ones have not had nightmares. And I have prayed for all the other kids present that day.
When terrible things happen in the lives of those around me not only does it utterly break my heart but it puts my own life into perspective. I suddenly realize I took all those tiny things in my daily life for granted. Even the bad days have good things in them. It makes me want to keep my kids close and squeeze the crap out of them. It makes me want to be a better mom, and a better person.
This isn’t anything mind blowing. I just needed to share what is on my mind. And like all parents who watched the news in horror, I am heart broken about their loss and I am praying for their comfort.
They have set up an official fund for donations through the United Way. I thought I would provide the link in case you wanted it. https://newtown.uwwesternct.org/